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I Could Have Made a Child

by Elly Kellner

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I Could Have Made a Child 03:53
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I could have made a child I have the body for it I could have made a child And it would be grown by now I've got the hips, the womb The loving heart I could have made a child I could have made a child And I could've fed it peaches I could have made a child And taught it to rise each day To stay close to its own heart Find strength in vulnerability I could have made a child But all this time I have spent Making myself a happier person All this time I have spent 'Cause I needed more time For me I could have made a child And written songs about it I could have made a child And hear how it sings Could've caressed it and blessed it With all my creativity Yes, I could have made a child But all this time I have spent Making myself a happier person All this time I have spent 'Cause I needed more time For me I could have made a child
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I Will Start Over 03:28
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The letting go is easy But only if you're into that specific sort of thing Like tidying your junk from your trunk It can definitely be quite easy If you're into really sad goodbyes Like a tree in the fall, letting go of the leaves Leave me alone, I will start over Leave me alone, I will take a new breath Leave me alone, I will start over Leave me alone, I will take a new breath Letting go, sure it's easy Particularly if a clean slate gives you thrills Like an empty counter top on which to chop Letting go is easy But only if you're into the bittersweet It's a bit like faith, you can choose whatever you want to believe Leave me alone, I will start over Leave me alone, I will take a new breath Leave me alone, I will start over Leave me alone, I will take a new breath
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Sharp Corners 03:22
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Oh the corner's sharp We don't want you to We don't want you to Hurt yourself Oh the monsters are Pretty big up there Pretty big up there They might swallow you Oh the water's deep We don't want you to 'Cause you never learned To swim Oh the people are They're all wearing masks Wearing masks You should probably wear yours too We've taken care of you Held you when no-one would We're keeping you safe We've taken care of you Held you when no-one would We're keeping you safe Oh it's all too much And the air's to heavy The air's too heavy How could you carry that Oh the sky is dark It's all pouring down Pouring down And you didn't bring a coat We've taken care of you Held you when no-one would We're keeping you safe We've taken care of you Held you when no-one would We're keeping you safe Oh the corner's sharp We don't want you to We don't want you to Hurt yourself
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My Roots 03:35
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It started from a little pot The smallest seed was growing Was given water, given shade And sunlight overflowing But roots they grow and take up space As they are growing stronger They need more depth, more nourishment Can’t stay here any longer This spot is too restrictive You gave me the world Just so I could grow I never imagined it possible You taught me that soil Takes care of it all And now I can feel myself growing Now I can feel myself growing Give a little time, give a little hope Give a little time, give a little hope Give a little me, give a little me to you It started from a little pot The smallest seed was growing Was given water, given shade And sunlight overflowing
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All Of This, Nothingness 04:47
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Sift through A thousand tiny holes makes the love disappear A thousand tiny holes make it seem like it was never here How is it to pour our everything, in, and see it all gets lost How is it to give our everything, in, and see it disappear A thousand tiny holes makes the love disappear A thousand tiny holes make it seem like it was never here But you come again and fill me up with all the love And some is lost on me and some will be safely stored In my heart forever But baby can you cope Baby all of this, nothingness When we pour our love and everything, in, will it ever be enough When we give our heart and everything, in, will we feel eternal love A thousand tiny holes makes the love disappear A thousand tiny holes make it seem like it was never here But you come again and fill me up with all the love And some is lost on me and some will be safely stored In my heart forever But baby can you cope Baby all of this, nothingness
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Another Person 03:53
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Oh friend, what happened In our heart, what happened And in our mind, what changed In our heart, what changed I got scared there I got scared there But how does one lose another person How does one lose another person Oh friend, I've lost you I couldn't find my way back Too much was about to change A lot of things got rearranged And I got scared there I was scared there How does one lose another person How does one lose another person
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You Broke It And Returned It 03:02
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I wrapped it in soft linen And I placed it on the table I made sure the table’s sturdy I made sure it wouldn’t fall I watched it as you picked it up Carressed it and held it in your arms And I closed my eyes a moment to let it sink in And every so often I would pick it up to check it It looked perfect like it did when I put it there Then I saw you hold it with a frown And quickly after you put it down And we watched as it fell to the floor You said you didn’t care for it at this time And you want to return what is rightfully mine And you broke it before you returned it You said it doesn’t do it for my anymore So I don’t know what I would be doing it for So I broke it and I’m returning it Said you can have it back ‘Cause it’s broken anyway
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Humming Gently 03:19
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I hear you humming gently As you walk into the hall You’re making us some dinner And you’re taking care of it all How beautiful this image And how good it made me feel How sad it’s just an image No longer real My brain is now forgetting The softness of your touch And my heart is slowly letting go Of how I loved you so much Go where the birds go With their lonely song We’ll go where the birds go We did no wrong Lover we tried, lover we did Lover I loved you But go where the birds go
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This Kinda Fun 03:28
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One minute I’m happy, one minute I’m sad I am thinking of the things that, I will never have One minute I’m down and the next I’m up I am gluing all the pieces of this broken cup Drink it up, drink it up There are no more tears to cry Drink it up, drink it up In the end we all will die And I wanna live a little, before I do And I wanna have this kinda fun with you One minute I’m horny, then the next I’m not I am thinking of the things I should have done but I forgot I’m talking to my boo, he says he’ll soon be mine Makes me feel a whole lot better and it work all the time He’ll be mine, he’ll be mine There are no more tears to cry He’ll be mine, he’ll be mine In the end we all will die And I wanna live a little, before I do And I wanna have this kinda fun with you And I wanna live a little, before I do And I wanna have this kinda fun with you Boo could be just anyone, anyone I please Maybe I am shallow, I just need release Come on boo, come over here, I’ll sit on your knee You can tell me all the things, you wanna do to me Do to me, do to me There are no more tears to cry Do to me, do to me In the end we all will die And I wanna live a little, before I do And I wanna have this kinda fun with you And I wanna live a little, before I do And I wanna have this kinda fun with you
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A Little Longer 05:17
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The first thing on my mind in the morning When you are sleeping softly in my bed Is how I long to touch and hold on to you Even if this kind of longing makes me sad Is it a dream, we have to get up and do the things But in my dream, I lay with you until the of time Baby let us sleep a little longer Just a little longer than before And baby if we sleep a little longer I know when I wake up, I’ll want you more The second thought that comes in the morning Is how I never want to let you go And how I want to make us both so happy Take us from that dreaded undertow Is it a dream, we have to get up and do the things But in my dream, I lay with you until the of time Baby let us sleep a little longer Just a little longer than before And baby if we sleep a little longer I know when I wake up, I’ll want you more
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Mountains of Men ft. Sandro Friedrich 05:24
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Will you follow me where I go Will you follow me where I go This path is so crooked But it's truly mine I came in barefoot Across the borderline How I struggled uphill Mountains of men Grew into a landslide Came down again Came... down again Came... down again Will you follow me where I go Will you follow me where I go Will you follow me where I go Will you follow me where I go

about

First released in 2020 as an EP, in November 2021 six new songs were added to the re-release. On these songs Elly is joined by Beshar Al Azzawi on the Oud, Jivan Gasparyan on Duduk, Iain Matthews on backing vocals and again Sashla Shlain on piano. Backingvocals on the song This Kinda Fun by: Danielle Eog Makedah, Heather Bond and Syssi Mananga. Andreas Bernitt arranged and performed strings on the song My Roots which is Elly’s thank you song to Beyond Music for sparking her joy for music again.

For the album Elly Kellner again focused on vulnerability as the main subject for the lyrics. Sharp Corners speaks about fear and (self)protection. I Will Start Over covers loss and the art of letting go. The soothing I Could Have Made a Child saw its first light on Christmas Day. A song for anyone whose heart suffers because of childlessness, no matter the story, causes or reasons behind it.

Mountains of Men* concludes the album which features three musicians that Elly met at Beyond Music. Sandro Friedrich from Switzerland plays the wonderful bansuri flute. Together with John Lumpkin from the USA on drums and Sasha Shlain from Russia/Switzerland on piano & synthesizer a meditative atmosphere was created.

credits

released November 5, 2021

Written and arranged by Elly Kellner. Elly recorded her parts in her homestudio. Other parts were recorded in the USA, Cameroon, Denmark, Congo, Switzerland, Armenia and the Netherlands.

Elly Kellner – Vocals, Guitar, Bass guitar, Percussion, Casio
Andreas Bernitt – Strings and string arrangement (4)
Sasha Shlain – Piano, synthesizer (5, 11)
Sandro Friedrich – Bansuri flute (5)
Jivan Gasparyan – Duduk (10)
Beshar Al Azzawi – Oud (7)
John Lumpkin – Drums (5)
Danielle Eog Makedah – Backing vocals (9)
Syssi Mananga – Backing vocals (9)
Heather Bond – Backing vocals (9)
Iain Matthews – Backing vocals (5)

Produced by Elly Kellner with the kind assistance of BJ Baartmans.
*Mountains of Men was co-produced by John Lumpkin and Sasha Shlain.
BJ Baartmans – Mix & master in Studio Wild Verband.
Cover design by Elly Kellner.

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Melodic sad songs and secret happy songs that feel like a soft, warm whisper in your ear. Kellner serves melancholy mixed with radical honesty, all on a guitar with just four strings.

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